When everything has been peeled back, when all the additions are torn away and all that is inconsequential - all that could never matter is ripped from the bottom up. You are left with the truth, the undeniable unequivocal truth. What you really are beneath it all, it's a sight many could never truly find, let alone be able to look upon freely. To do so could mean the very end of everything they'd ever convinced themselves to be truth, to be knowledge.
He sat atop the Dawei sculpture in quiet contemplation - there were no sunglasses hugging his head, no brawlers gloves, no weapons strapped to the interior of a coat he'd not brought with him. Even his feet were bear, he was but himself and the light Gi attached to his frame. The grey clouds above lightly pelted the earth below as rain drops swelled and fell, each randomized piece of logic within their specified place telling them where to fall, where to land and what puddles to make. His eyes were closed as he sat, the droplets colliding with him, his spiked hair falling flat to the light impact of each drop.
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Enlightenment.
Enlightenment is a process in which one grows more aware of the falsifications in the world around them, where one does not become stronger or more powerful, but more aware. To be aware of that which isn't, and which cannot - in order to see past it. Enlightenment cannot be obtained externally, it is within one's self, that the journey must be made.
One must not seek the falseness of the world around them, but rather the falseness of themselves. To peel away the world around you, is to leave you with nothing but your own created falsifications, but to remove yourself of that which is untrue within - is to force the world around you to yield unto you it's truths.
It is not as simple as destiny or pre-ordained fate, nor as simple as cause and effect - within this place we define our realities and subsequent unrealities, it is within this world that our continual steps forward slowly become steps backward.
If each and everyone one of us is incapable of fault, then the mistakes made are not learned from, they are doomed to be repeated.
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The rain intensified slowly, more and more of the drops coming now, more hungrily seeking those dry spots and removing them. It collided with the pools of water below and was almost loud enough to hide quick and light foot steps moving towards the monument.
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Purpose.
Purpose is the guiding hand of a so-called fate, but fate doesn't govern how purpose exists, or how we find it how we lose it. Without purpose, one loses their sense of things, their sense of self within a place such as this. This is a world built upon purpose, upon the point of existence - the why, reasons behind everything.
A place for every book, and every book in it's place. I've fallen off of the shelf.
Choice, control, fate or freewill - those who seek are lead to believe that each and every choice is already made - it is not for us to make the choice, but to understand it, to understand the why of it. I've found more questions then choices, more falsifications and nonsense then guidance, more circles then paths, more lies then truths. In the midst of this chaos it is the world I've chosen to blame for such, and in doing so forgone the very essence of what enlightenment is.
To be surrounded by lies and to be without purpose is not the fault of anyone, but the one who allowed it to happen in the first place. To have abandoned enlightenment for comfort, for ease - to have forfeited the very path so many swear to walk.
I am without purpose in this place.
I have stopped searching for enlightenment.
And I have lost the means to find these things.
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"Then what is it you will do?"
The wingless angel's voice broke the noise of the rains assault on the water below, his tone as calm and cool as the droplets that slowly crept down his face.
"If I knew I doubt I'd be sitting here." He replied calmly, his eyes still closed, his mind batting thoughts and philosophies around in his head.
"Perhaps you would."
"Purpose is an interesting thing to speak of with you, especially since the Halborn incident."
"I still protect that which matters most Darminian."
"Is she truly gone Seraph?" He asked his tone not nearly as cold as it had grown over the years, his vividly unusual blue eyes now opening to stare into the round dark shades of the ancient seraphim.
"I cannot say."
His eyes closed again as his head lowered slightly, a bizarre mood had descended with the rain, and he was more unsure now then he'd been when he'd been drawn to this place of contemplation. As his mind mulled over the philosophical fragments he'd buried deep within his own consciousness so long ago, once again the seraphim's voice broke it.
"You no longer know yourself like you once did, I know longer know you like I once did."
His head turned slightly, his eyes narrowing at the man in the open white coat, his thoughts racing at his comment.
"I must apologize Darminian."
"For wha-" His sentence had only half escaped his mouth when the Seraphim's legs had shot out from beneath him where'd they been crossed and sent Darminian flying off the sculpture. He tumbled back off the edge and plummeted to the ground below, he landed within the large pool of water with a large splash and rose to his feet wiping the water from his eyes in time to see the seraphim leap down into the same pool of water and barely disturb it's surface.
For a long while the two merely stood within the pool of water, their eyes upon one another, the trees surrounding them, the wind picked up as the rain continued to poor. With the slightest of nods they charged at one another, volleys of strikes and kicks were sent back and fourth as they leapt to and fro, ducking and dodging sidestepping and weaving. For a time the sounds of their clothing being whipped around in the wind was indiscernible from the sounds of their blows moving through the air and the tactile parry's and combinations.
After a series of strikes had missed the seraphim, Darminian adapted the combo with an unorthodox kick - but the seraphim was too fast and easily caught him by the ankle and flipped him forward using his own momentum. Once again he found himself on his back beneath the water, he got to his feet and stared down his opponent.
"You are too distracted."
The two circled one another the rains descent growing faster and harder. Again the subtle nod played intro to a war of blows - the two of them constantly switching styles and tact in order to try to throw off the other. The seraphim's strikes to quick too flawless to counter all of them- his movements as fluid as the water surrounding their feet.
"You cannot find your path in this chaos."
Darminian caught a heavy blow to the chest and growled as he lunged forward and threw a heavy right hook his opponents way, the momentum carried him in a half circle as the seraphim ducked the blow and countered with a sift kick into his back once again sending him into the cold water beneath them. The water soaked him through and through, washing across his face as he pushed himself off of the ground, his head breaking the surface he spit out the water in his mouth and wiped it getting to his feet.
"There is no path to find, were all just following."
"Then you must break away."
"There's nothing to break away to - it's all the same!" Darminian snapped back charging the seraphim, his blows more hostile now, more vicious, they began to strike more rapidly, his speed increasing - the seraphim's visage still calm and collected but even he began to move more rapidly, occasionally one of them getting air born to avoid a blow or try and land one. Another failed attempt at an obscure punch was followed by a blow from seraph which sent him sliding backwards but still on his feet.
"Then find something that is not the same."
"I can't!" Darminian roared once again rushing his opponent, unleashing a flurry of kicks followed by a roundhouse which forced the seraphim to back peddle a few feet. He raised his guard again and Darminian did the same, the two of them switching stances.
"Why not?" The seraphim questioned - running forward into a kick that collided with Darminian's forearm - as he touched down again a fierce exchange of blows took place -this time with less speed and more power. The force from their blows and blocks sending cuts across the top of the water and through the rain that fell through the air. "Because -" Darminian belted out as he kicked off of the seraphim's guard and leapt backwards onto the ground behind him.
"THERE IS NOTHING TO FIND! His shout filled the park and the sky seemed to explode within the same moment the lightning breaking through the black cover. His frame ripped across the water towards the seraphim - but in the same instant it was off the ground, his feet running along the side of the sculpture and in the final feet of it he leapt into the air and began a deadly descent towards his opponent.
His fist collided with the ground beneath him as a tremendous splash of water shot out from around him. The park was dark now, leaving enough faded light to illuminate the area he was in, the lighting that pierced the cloud cover yielded the remainder of the area, he was alone, kneeling in the muck beneath the surface of the pool. His chest rising and falling rapidly as he sought air to fill his lungs as he spoke quietly.
"Th....there's nothing here......nothi...nothing left.....nothing that matters."
He rose to his feet in the midst of the down poor, the storm overhead, and simply stared out across the park, the water having completely soaked through his gi, and flattened his hair.
