(this is a monologue I wrote for Euforia. It pretty much explains in her words what happened to her and why she picked the path she had. Pretty much her writing in a journal. Enjoy.))
Memories.
Such funny little things they are. They can define you as a person. They can shape your life in the future. They can make you sady, or they can make you extatic. So many uses for them. But what happens when they are suddenly taken from you? You become lost. You see faces that are familiar, and yet you don't know them. You know time has passed and yet, you don't know how much. You reflect upon yourself and you realize you don't know who you are. Where you come from, or even why you're here. Alone and afraid. I don't know who took my memories, I don't know why, I don't know anything about myself, my choices, or my purpose. Some things I can remember other things I can't. It's like someone started poking holes into my brain, taking the important stuff and leaving the rest. Why would someone do this!?
When I came back to Zion, I was alone. Although through my journey in the cold tunnels I was able to remeber some things. I remembered a little bit about the matrix. Mainly what it was and why I had plugs in my head and body. But it wasn't very detailed. When in Zion I was able to find myway to Commander Locke's desk. Although I didn't miss the look of surprise on people's faces. I didn't really understand until I spoke with the commander. He too was surprised but it was my turn when he slapped my file down infront of me.
After reading I felt sick and had there not had been a seat there, I would have surely collapsed onto the floor. Dead? Even though I didn't know much, I knew my name at the very least, and seeing me here now, well I'm very much alive. Why would anyone want to lie? most importantly who?
Of course the commander had me checked out from head to toe. He wanted to give me a chance to jack back in, but wanted to make sure I was stable. They did many physch tests and physical exams to make sure. Some of the results surprised me, even though I had hoped for them to allow me to jack in. They told me that someone was looking for something in my brain. Wether they had found it or not, she wasn't sure. She also told me a throey about my memories. She said that the poking around and extracting what they wanted might have inadvertantly damaged something. Basicly I could have died or become completely brain dead. Somehow, it didn't happen like that. She also said I migh have some slight amnesia and given time I might remember some things and that's most likely why I could remember things about the matrix and Zion. Although the probability of it is so low she wouldn't recomend that I hope. Well it also turns out that I am stable and not insane, and that the things that I witness from this point on won't be damaged; in other words i'll be able to remember things that happen presently.
Of course, I went to work with training sims and documents to bring me up to speed about the simulation itself. It wasn't until I started reading the declassified reports on Neo that I started to feel my heart tug into a specific direction. I didn't know why at that point, but it did. Was something inside telling me to walk Neo's path? I didn't know then, but now I'm certain it is what it was.
It wasn't until my first mission that I realized what I needed to do. So I did some digging around and found the name Gami and found who he worked for. I decided to contact him and join his cause. Is this the right thing to do? I do not know. I cannot tell as my past life is gone from me, but maybe I had made a mistake, and maybe this is a chance to correct that mistake with a new life.
---Euforia
Such funny little things they are. They can define you as a person. They can shape your life in the future. They can make you sady, or they can make you extatic. So many uses for them. But what happens when they are suddenly taken from you? You become lost. You see faces that are familiar, and yet you don't know them. You know time has passed and yet, you don't know how much. You reflect upon yourself and you realize you don't know who you are. Where you come from, or even why you're here. Alone and afraid. I don't know who took my memories, I don't know why, I don't know anything about myself, my choices, or my purpose. Some things I can remember other things I can't. It's like someone started poking holes into my brain, taking the important stuff and leaving the rest. Why would someone do this!?
When I came back to Zion, I was alone. Although through my journey in the cold tunnels I was able to remeber some things. I remembered a little bit about the matrix. Mainly what it was and why I had plugs in my head and body. But it wasn't very detailed. When in Zion I was able to find myway to Commander Locke's desk. Although I didn't miss the look of surprise on people's faces. I didn't really understand until I spoke with the commander. He too was surprised but it was my turn when he slapped my file down infront of me.
After reading I felt sick and had there not had been a seat there, I would have surely collapsed onto the floor. Dead? Even though I didn't know much, I knew my name at the very least, and seeing me here now, well I'm very much alive. Why would anyone want to lie? most importantly who?
Of course the commander had me checked out from head to toe. He wanted to give me a chance to jack back in, but wanted to make sure I was stable. They did many physch tests and physical exams to make sure. Some of the results surprised me, even though I had hoped for them to allow me to jack in. They told me that someone was looking for something in my brain. Wether they had found it or not, she wasn't sure. She also told me a throey about my memories. She said that the poking around and extracting what they wanted might have inadvertantly damaged something. Basicly I could have died or become completely brain dead. Somehow, it didn't happen like that. She also said I migh have some slight amnesia and given time I might remember some things and that's most likely why I could remember things about the matrix and Zion. Although the probability of it is so low she wouldn't recomend that I hope. Well it also turns out that I am stable and not insane, and that the things that I witness from this point on won't be damaged; in other words i'll be able to remember things that happen presently.
Of course, I went to work with training sims and documents to bring me up to speed about the simulation itself. It wasn't until I started reading the declassified reports on Neo that I started to feel my heart tug into a specific direction. I didn't know why at that point, but it did. Was something inside telling me to walk Neo's path? I didn't know then, but now I'm certain it is what it was.
It wasn't until my first mission that I realized what I needed to do. So I did some digging around and found the name Gami and found who he worked for. I decided to contact him and join his cause. Is this the right thing to do? I do not know. I cannot tell as my past life is gone from me, but maybe I had made a mistake, and maybe this is a chance to correct that mistake with a new life.
---Euforia
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Euforia (lv50 SMG)
Trayden (Lv26 Karate)
Euforia (lv50 SMG)
Trayden (Lv26 Karate)