Thank you REM (open RP)

He slammed his fists on the desk, scattering papers like leaves in the wind. He was livid, which was a strange thing to behold since containing composure is something he tried to do all the time. He stormed around it, punching a hole in the wall, causing a small cloud of dust and insulation to fill the air. She waltzed in at the sound of the chaos inside his room. The door opened as he was in the middle of lighting a cigarette, another unusual sight to see from him.

Something wrong Darm?

she giggled as she looked around the office.

Oh no, *poop* loads of drowning blue pills, more people after our blood than before, and our ‘glorious leader' showing up, clarifying nothing, and not understanding no matter what he does people don't care.

Well, he is just a kid Darm, what do you expect?

But he's the leader, I mean he stepped up, got those people behind him, but it's like he doesn't care, he doesn't even bother speaking to us. You know he wanted them to stay faithful to him, but Tae was the one there for us, he was the one showing up getting us informed. The kid would just show up and be like good job guys, bravo.

Well they say faith can blind a man. Perhaps he needs a reality check, faith without logic can stop bullets.

It worked for neo.

He's not neo, and neither are you.

She opened his coat to reveal the wounds that still hadn't closed, the blood staining the front of his shirt.

Wonderful, let me go get the med kit, you know for someone who says they don't like violence, you sure no how to find it.

I like violence -I just like other things better.

Well now what are you going to do? I know you your not going to want to sit down and explain to everyone how this wasn't your fault, and then what eventually accept that they'll blaim all of you no matter what?

She said as she pushed him into his chair and began sewing lines of code back together in his skin with the open streams.

Ugh, don't we have pills?

Nope, were all out, after that last incident. Your going to need to code more.

Don't remind me.

So what are you going to do though?

Well Merit and Escondido can tell people where I stood in this whole ordeal, I mean I spoke to her in the aftermath, and I was in his little group in front of the church. So they can tell their own.

I mean what are you going to do about the kid?

I...

He sighed calmly.

I'm going to give him two options, two simple options that will define what my next course of action will be.

Oh?

She inquired as she finished the patchwork.

He's going to sit down with me and discuss that which I've needed to say since he started this route, faith versus logic like we've said, the direction and purpose of this *CENSORED* org, and what the hell he's trying to do. I'm going to tell him what I think of this whole thing and I'm going to find out if I should even bother staying.

What's the second option?

He can accept my resignation from the ranks of the EPN and he can take my letter of resignation and shove it.

Your serious?

Dead serious.

And what happens if he doesn't meet with you?

Then I'll know he obviously doesn't give a *poop* about the ones loyal to his cause, and I'll be able to move on to find my purpose, or the cause that suits me.

And that would be?

No idea.

Well this came for you  by the way.

She left the room and came back with a small package.

It's from taecross.

Is it ticking?

He forced a chuckle.

No, but they don't tick.

Handing him the package.

Tearing it open, he looked at the small gift now in his hands, a small smile came to his lips.

Talk about going out with a bang....

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Darminian

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A Letter to the kid => Sent to the ship via Taecross's on board e-mail, before its deletion.

Dear Michael,

I've come to a point where in which it now becomes a necessity that I speak to you, our operatives are turning rogue, your ready to cast them out with no connection to us, your route is leading us to a zone of inactivity and your people are losing faith in the confusion of the world around them.

You wanted them to oppose someone like Taecross, since he is forcing his own agenda at the cost of blue pill life, to stand against one who they were before in place to support. Here you are, our noble leader; the king of the EPN as it were, and we see you a fraction of the time we saw him, and even he is hardly around -though now you'll have him beat as he is no more.

You expected those whose only leadership came from this man, to oppose him at the drop of a hat? Loyalty and Respect are things earned and not given, though I fear many have forgotten that in their admiration of the big names, like you, Niobe and ghost. But today worked as an example, you clearly don't know your troops, your people, as you come in to tell us that he was wrong and we don't support that action. 90% of the epn on site today were apparently helping him as it were, and according to you, those that did would be removed, two things are ridiculous about this statement.

No one helped or stopped Taecross today, not a single person fired upon him, nor struck him, not a single person helped him prep a bomb or even arm one, he did it all on his own. And even at the end, where he stacked the many bombs which overloaded his RSI and served as his demise, not one person helped or stopped him. No matter who says what, everyone around him today was an audience member, regardless of what they wanted to be.

But this letter isn't about that, this letter is a formal request if not demand for your presence for a meeting between you and I, I need to get some facts straight, and only you can help me. I would go to Santia for connection with you, but frankly, I'd rather not wait another 6 months to speak with her. You and I need to have a discussion as I've found my feelings about being here have wavered to an unstable zone.

Perhaps its my ego, or something else, that could serve as the answer to the question "what makes me so special as to meet with you" or "what gives me the right to a one on one" Well those questions are asked by those that will hold you in higher regard than perhaps you deserve. As far as I'm concerned, I feel I'm entitled to it for several reasons. The first would be my devotion and dedication to the cause, it's been unwavering and unchanging since before you even met with us, since before we even truly had your endorsement as it were, and I've still stood by. Secondly I deserve it because I ask for it, this might not entitle me to much in most orgs, but in this one, where you yourself have said were all equals.

Now for the part that makes it like a demand, I ask that you attend based upon a request, you are well within your rights to decline or refuse, but failure to

a)acknowledge this request

or

b)meet with me.

Will result in the submittal of my resignation from the EPN, these things will show unto me you care very little about your people, and even less about the loyal ones. I've grown tired of going through this hell for nothing. Tired of wondering if this hell is even worth it, consider this your last chance to change my mind.

Sincerely

Darminian

Word on the street is you demanded a private meeting with the head honco.

And?

Who the *CENSORED* do you think are man, like your better than the rest of us or something, that your entitled to meet him? You think hes gonna play favorites or some *poop* like that?

It's not about favoritism, than what, you think your better than me? Than us?

I think for starters you should calm down, your embarassing yourself. Secondly, it was a request, i don't expect him to show up, hell i've made appointments with people and gotten less, and this guy is our leader right, he's busy as hell so i don't expect him to step out of his office in zion or whatever desk he sits behind to come see me. No, i don't expect it at all, but i'm giving him a chance.

A chance for what?

 A chance to show me hes different than the rest, that hes not some mindless leader too concerned with his own power to to give a *poop* about his individuals, his own people. I want to see if he's at the beck and call of his people, i don't give a *poop* how busy he is, you know i'm a busy guy too, but for a long time, i've had more people in a faciton i've been *CENSORED* near the top of, then hes had as an org, and he's still around less than i am.

So what, maybe hes got *poop* to take care of?

Does he? Remember a the piece of blue sky concerts?

Yeah - what about em?

He didn't show up till the end, seems to me some soilder of zion, some soilder of neo, who believed in total freedom shoulda been on hand to stop the lights no? Instead he shows up at the end, and says good job guys. I remember Taecross told me not to go there when i pressed him about where he'd been all day.

Yeah well you should show more respect to your superior officers.

Superior? What the name of god makes him superior to me, cause he starts a little rag tag team of action mongers and then decides to do nothing? Do i need to remind you, we made the move first on this iteration cause he was taking his *CENSORED* time here, we started this *poop*, and even the machines recognized that. Our methods weren't the best but you know what? I'd bet dollars to donuts my *CENSORED* has been on the line more than his has.

What about when he was in camon fighting Grey?

What about that, cause hes stupid to try and fight an agent, theres a difference between being in dangerous situations and putting yourself in danger. If hes trying to earn my respect for him like that, hes got another thing commming.

Yeah but he put up an amazing fight, no one has ever beaten an agent, except for......

Hes not neo. People need to realize that, a lot of people knew neo, hell niobe, ghost, the merovingian, i'd wager even flood and all the other lap dogs, yet no one is stupid enough to figure they are the kid, so why do some of us?

You gotta have faith man..... you gotta believe.....

Believe in what? What the hell do you want me to believe? You want me to believe in our leader who shows up at the end every time to give the final statement? If he wants to earn my respect maybe next time he'll show up and stop the Taecross, prove to everyone he does have some common sense as opposed to showing up at the end ang going "oops, my bad". These people don't care about that, hell these days they don't even wanna listen to him, and those that do, we get *poop* on, cause he wants to speak to the masses. Is that any way to treat the ones with faith?

 I..... I.....

 I'm done here, i'm not trying to sway you from your path to the one, or even your path to salvation or redemption, i just can't keep going like this when my heart isn't in my work.

But what, when your killing and making money, stealing, being crafty, sinning in the ways of a merrovingian, you find your heat in your work? Or perhaps when your effeciently removing problems in your situation, fixing code dilemmas or patching nodes or giving a *poop* about the blue pills, and acting like a machinist *CENSORED* kisser, than your hearts in your work?

We were all bluepills once.

Yeah, but were not now, and as were outside of the truce, that means they are a threat to us, and if you need to --

If i need to i'll kill one in self defense but theres a difference between self defense and cold blooded useless murder. The redpills around us, it's safe to say few are innocent, and i know a lot of blue pills do bad things whil they sleep, the real world isn't always as cruel as the dream world, but the fact remains, if anyone is innocent here its them.

You sound like a *CENSORED* cypherite.

I don't support them, i don't want to sleep, but lets be honest, if everyone was put back, there would be a lot more peace then there would if everyone was awakened.

So you don't support globa awakening or even the end of the matrix?

How could i, i've met exiles with more feeling and humanity than i have myself, i couldn't see them die. And i wouldn't force those with a good life into a *CENSORED* existence, so the matrix needs to last, even if we ever do start again outside or clear the sky.

So then, what the hell are you? Some kind of cold blooded killer one minute, some terrorist kind, to some bleeding heart humanitarian, beyond humanitarian as you care for exiles? What the *CENSORED* are you?

I'm lost.

Darminian

A puzzled look came to his face as he overlooked the public transmission, he closed it down and retired to his room, as usual he was wide awake without any intention of sleeping. He shut off the lights and sat quietly in the dark.

Probation eh? You naughty naughty boy.

I hate it when you do that.

Yeah like you're the only one who sneaks around in the shadows.

No I suppose not, but I've never snuck into your bedroom.

Yeah, too bad.

Hilarious isn't it?

What?

I give him an ultimatum as it were, about meeting with me or watching me walk away, and not only does it go ignored, he puts me on probation for something I didn't even do. .

So you going to try and defend yourself or plead your case?

What's the point, I mean everyone whose going to judge thinks I'm guilty, I mean they think he's guilty and he's trying to make up for Taecross's actions.

Well don't you want to at least avoid probation?

He chuckled. Probation means I won't be speaking to the kid, or being involved in actions and events from our organization. So more or less probation is the same as every day life in the EPN.

Don't you at least want him to know you didn't do it?

I don't think he even knows which one in a prophet duster I am. I'd be impressed if he could pick me out in a line up.

Still....

Look all it means is that maybe he'll want to step up and tell us himself why were on probation and I can finally get to speak to him. And if not, well then I've got some vacation time on my hands.

Maybe you should just have faith in him, in neo, or at least fate.

Faith in fate?

Why not?

I don't know about faith in fait, but if Micheal won't give me the requested guidance, perhaps there's a person who deals in fate, that will.

So how long are you going to wait this time?

No idea, but as I compile a list of people I wait for, the probability of meeting someone gets better.

You know for someone who wants to denounce his dependance on the 'celebreties of the matrix' you sure aren't starting well.

It's a 12 step program, step one is admitance, step two is denial.

That doesn't make any sense.

It's my program it doesn't have to, now jack me in, i wanna go write another letter.

Yeah -cause the last one worked soooo well.

Shut up.

Darminian

Any word from the kid yet?

*he rolled his eyes.* What do you think?

Oh i know, but it's fun to irk you. How about the mistress of cookies?

*He chuckled a bit.* I put word to her and her guardian, i have another angle, but that can be dealt with in due time i suppose.

So what now?

I suppose i give him till his next appearence, or Santias at least. If nothing is said then, i'm leaving.

So what until then, your going to "have faith"? *she giggled.*

If you want to call it that.

Your a strange one.

Indeed i am. It's out of my hands as much as it is in them.

Wish i was.

Shut up.

*she giggled again.*

Darminian