This is just a general me ranting thread... I have these every once in
a while. But I wanted to get other people's takes on things in
this game.
When I first came here, I usually was shocked by the live events.
I found them interesting, amazing, intriguing, etc. People
complained that they were hard to follow... but for some reason I
never found that. Maybe I have good connections, friends in the
right places, got lucky, who knows? But I was connected to the
events even since I was level 10. When I was deeply involved with
Invalesco, I was 23. There were people who were 50 by then, and I
was more involved in the LET than they were. I finally felt like
I had found my place.
People knew my title, people knew me walking down the street, people
would roleplay with me wherever I was. But then, the events
stopped. Double Cross was the ending. And after that, I
feel almost like a fish out of water ever since then.
I am not a level fiend. I cannot stand grinding. I love
MMORPGs, but I hate grinding... yes, it's backwards, I know. I
have been searching for something... some game to finally come along
and push story more than level, push social conflict just as much as
ability conflict, push roleplaying as much as fighting... And I thought
it was all here. Playing this game was exciting, everytime you
logged in you were wondering if something was going on that you didn't
know about.
And now... I know it all. Everyone does. Nothing
changes. And now... I walk down the street, and I get laughed at
because I'm 36. People I recruited into my faction are higher
level than me, and people are wondering why do I never level?
Because it's not me. It never will be me.
I told others I have a fear of being 50. I don't want to be
bored. Missions break up RP... not RP breaks up missions.
Also, physical power is not Return's style. It never will
be. She's a **bleep**, she's a cunning **bleep**, she's not a shooting
**bleep** or one who does her own work. She gets other people to do
it for her. And my level, in my opinion, reflects that.
Above all, I never left a game because it got so bad I had to leave
it. I've always left a game because I've felt it was my time to
go. However, Matrix seems to me like I use to have everything I
liked to do, and now it doesn't. Like, I'm being forced out of my
home. God bless the people who still RP with me, they're the only
thing really keeping me here.
I'm just wondering, is anyone feeling the same feeling? I'm
trying to describe it, and I think I got most of it, but there are some
things about it that I know I can't put into words.
a while. But I wanted to get other people's takes on things in
this game.
When I first came here, I usually was shocked by the live events.
I found them interesting, amazing, intriguing, etc. People
complained that they were hard to follow... but for some reason I
never found that. Maybe I have good connections, friends in the
right places, got lucky, who knows? But I was connected to the
events even since I was level 10. When I was deeply involved with
Invalesco, I was 23. There were people who were 50 by then, and I
was more involved in the LET than they were. I finally felt like
I had found my place.
People knew my title, people knew me walking down the street, people
would roleplay with me wherever I was. But then, the events
stopped. Double Cross was the ending. And after that, I
feel almost like a fish out of water ever since then.
I am not a level fiend. I cannot stand grinding. I love
MMORPGs, but I hate grinding... yes, it's backwards, I know. I
have been searching for something... some game to finally come along
and push story more than level, push social conflict just as much as
ability conflict, push roleplaying as much as fighting... And I thought
it was all here. Playing this game was exciting, everytime you
logged in you were wondering if something was going on that you didn't
know about.
And now... I know it all. Everyone does. Nothing
changes. And now... I walk down the street, and I get laughed at
because I'm 36. People I recruited into my faction are higher
level than me, and people are wondering why do I never level?
Because it's not me. It never will be me.
I told others I have a fear of being 50. I don't want to be
bored. Missions break up RP... not RP breaks up missions.
Also, physical power is not Return's style. It never will
be. She's a **bleep**, she's a cunning **bleep**, she's not a shooting
**bleep** or one who does her own work. She gets other people to do
it for her. And my level, in my opinion, reflects that.
Above all, I never left a game because it got so bad I had to leave
it. I've always left a game because I've felt it was my time to
go. However, Matrix seems to me like I use to have everything I
liked to do, and now it doesn't. Like, I'm being forced out of my
home. God bless the people who still RP with me, they're the only
thing really keeping me here.
I'm just wondering, is anyone feeling the same feeling? I'm
trying to describe it, and I think I got most of it, but there are some
things about it that I know I can't put into words.
