"staring at the sea
will she come?
is there hope for me
after all is said and done
anything at any price
all of this for you
all the spoils of a wasted life
all of this for you
All the world has closed her eyes
tired faith all worn and thin
for all we could have done
and that could have been
ocean pulls me close
and whispers in my ears
the destiny ive chose
all becoming clear
the currents have their say
the time is drawing near
washes me away
makes me dissapear
I descend from grace
In arms of undertow
I will take my place
In the Great Below
I can still feel you even so far away..."
For those that have the capacity to read, this post is about the fires that were ignited in California.
I am not there to feed your minds with sadness and empty thoughts and prayers.
Those that know me know I am quite the eccentric player on Vector with a image that represents Tyler Durden's Fight Club as much as possible.
Yesterday i turned on the television for a glance of the news as i came home from work. The fires had just received attention then. I could see the sky was already in tan haze. The air was dry. I went to bed with my window closed.This morning at 4 am i went to work (overslept 2 hours) to find dozens of cars parked in the lot of my building and neighboring plazas. The fire had spread and was visable. After work i came outside and went home. I could see on the street; bits of gray ash, thin black splinters of whatever. The air was thick like someone had a chimney going but the faint never went away. It became harder to breathe, i became overwhelmed with exhaustion.
I live in an area where the fire has spread thus far. I called my family and was told that our neighborhood is on voluntary evacuation.
The timing on our disasters is impeccable. In Tyler's way, if our homes are destroyed it is a chance to rethink our habits, memories,priorities and whatever else comes after our surival instincts.
When i walk outside, I hope this is a near life experience so i take a deep breathe of ash-air and arms wide to welcome it.
I am Jack's Wasted Life
I play on the computer
I have a big *CENSORED* screen TV
I work myself to death.
I am looking for a way to change my life.
And i cannot do this on my own.